So Why Now?

The short answer? We've accomplished certain goals we set for ourselves before we would "try" for a baby. 

These goals were to have stable jobs and live in a 2 bedroom place. We have been together for almost 5 years now (anniversary is next week!) and since moving to California, we have been living in tiny, crappy, expensive 1 bedroom apartments. It's not just the 2 of us either, we have 2 dogs. 

(look at these cute fools)

We really felt we needed more space before bringing another person and all of their things into our home, even if that person was going to be very small. The funny part about the 2 bedroom rule was that about 8 months ago we moved into our current 1 bedroom. And we absolutely love it. Its odd (in a good way), has off road parking, a great yard space for our dogs to hang out and for KDM and I to garden. Its hidden and we have no traffic noise. We've even considered bending our 2 bedroom rule because we loved this place so much, but I really wanted to have a baby. Well the way life works, we then had a perfect 2 bedroom in our budget fall into our laps. So, we will be moving in a few short weeks and our condoms are now collecting dust in our nightstand. 

An unrelated goal has also helped make this decision. We racked up some credit card debt over the years, especially when we moved from Florida to California, both took pay cuts, and our cost of living sky rocketed. Plus our beloved Florida State Seminoles have made 2 trips to Pasadena for big games that we absolutely couldn't miss. We had debt and didn't like it. In January 2014 we made big lifestyle changes and transferred balances to 0% APR cards. Well, 15 months later, we are credit card debt free! So we are feeling good and responsible and ready to make the most expensive commitment in our lives (raise a kid). 

The plan is smart & simple. Make some healthy adjustments and use no birth control. No ovulation tests (not yet anyway) and no planning sex. We don't want it to become stressful. I have started taking pre-natal vitamins and stopped drinking caffeine and alcohol. I also have a pre-conception appointment next week with my OBGYN. KDM and I are thinking of myself as possibly pregnant at all times now, so trying to be healthy.

Concerns? What if it takes a long time to conceive? What if we don't ever conceive. I don't expect to get pregnant immediately. But of course its all I think about now. I am watching documentaries about pregnancy, child birth, breast feeding... It's all so exciting to think about how much my life will change. I could literally spend ALL DAY online reading blogs, watching vlogs, surfing Pinterest. But for now, I have a big trip to Florida coming up, and of course, we are moving as soon as we get back. So basically, a lot of packing in my future. 

Am I really all grown up, with thoughts of credit card responsibility, 2 bedroom houses, and babies in my head? When did that happen?